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The idea of quitting first job

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The idea of quitting your first job without a real back-up

Okay, the title says it all. I’m thinking of quitting my ‘not-so-bad’ job, which pays enough too!

On any topic the thinking part happens from two perspectives, the positive mind and the negative one, the optimist and the pessimist. Let’s call the optimist Oprah and pessimist Pisa 😉

Oprah: you never really enjoyed the work, may be this will lead you to what is actually meant for you.

Pisa: But, what if this leads nowhere,. What if the next pay-cheque is the last one?

Oprah: Chill, don’t exaggerate; I’m in a better state than where I was. I am progressing, that’s all that matters.

Pisa: Confidence is good but, the above thought is definitely over-confidence. Why quit the hard earned job for personal life, career matters and you know that too.

Oprah: Career matters, it will start again afresh. I can find the same job anytime but, what if there is a better one out there for me, which will comprehend the personal life.

To add oil on fire, Pisa will remind you of the dark days after college when you had to attend interviews every other week. Oprah will say, “With no experience you joined one of the finest firms in India.”

On and on, this goes. Swinging back and forth. Sometimes the optimist wins and sometimes the pessimist, it’s tiring to think so much. And people say ‘do what you want to do’. Well wish I knew what I wanted. 😛

I never knew and I never will know and I’m okay not knowing.

Goes on and on…

So I decided to stop listening to either of them and start going to gym.

Then bam, I fell and sprained by feet. Doctor said “Don’t strain your foot until it is completely healed”.

Now I am planning to read, let me see how oprah/pisa is going to stop me from doing that. Yea!


Happily lost

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Living alone in a city lets you discover yourself along with exploring the city. I never knew I could feel this calm in a lonely subway or in a bus stop at 12am in the morning. I had no idea about the love I had for ‘Kerala rice’ until I moved out of Kerala. I never really had Kerala rice back in Kerala and now I know all the restaurants in Electronic city where I get a Malayalee meal.

I am living with pleasant tamil girls and it’s good to get to know their traditional way of life. My tamil definitely improved even if my cousins don’t agree 😉 . Now no one asks me “Neenga Malayaleeya?” when I speak tamil  😀 and that’s the proof I have. Getting to know tamilians also made me realize how “non-tamil” I am. I have nothing to do with Tamil other than the fact that I speak tamil.

Getting lost, missing buses, boarding the wrong bus is part of my life. Once I got down at a railway station around 6am, train left the moment I got out. I realized I was in a wrong station, I wanted to run behind the train the way Kareena did in Jab we met. Instead, I took out the phone and switched on GPS. All I could understand from the map was, I was lost and I was far away from Electronic City. With no other option, I followed the crowd. My brain assumes that Kannada is a mix of tamil and malayalam, I started asking local people where the bus stop is? After 30 mins I found out the bus stop and after another 2 hours of wondering ‘here and there’ I finally reached Ecity exhausted and happy. 😀

Another time I let the bus for which I had reserved my ticket pass right in front of my eyes. I was so lost in thoughts, enjoying the songs from the movie ‘Highway’, that I didn’t even take a second look on the bus. On the next bus I showed my ticket and the conductor said that the bus on which i reserved a seat just left. I was shouting inside my head while, I asked the conductor if there is a seat in that bus. Thankfully, there was  a seat, I took yet another ticket and  scolded myself the way my dad would have did if he had been in the scene :P.

I remember watching the movie ‘The other end of the line’ during college and wondering how wonderful it must be to talk to people from other side of the world as part of your job. I actually thought that it would let us know the world better. Then a few years later “BAM”, I am working in a support project, in the technical support team. All I do all day is talk to people around the globe, about ‘stock market’. I bang my head on Linux servers.

Well, I am definitely lost in every possible way and its fun to be lost.